THIS YOUNG WOMAN...

Thoughts, Desires, Musings and Life of a 20-year-old no longer living in bad faith

raw food budget (Breakfast)

7 days of kale/spinach-$15 (Henry’s)

7 days of organic apples-$8 (Farmer’s Market)

1 Bag organic celery- $5 (Ralph’s)

4 lemons-$2 (Superior)

TOTAL/WK:$30

Monthly:$120

cavetocanvas:

Hokusai, The Falls of Yoro, Province of Mino, c. 1827

cavetocanvas:

Hokusai, The Falls of Yoro, Province of Mino, c. 1827

Amor Fati

Love of fate,

It all makes sense now, I’m an existentialist. Fuck hard determinism. Fuck compatibilism. Fuck libertarianism. 

Let’s go Fatalism. Let’s go Sarte! My existence precedes essence therefore I am compelled to create my own meaning rather than despairing at this bleak world of ours. 

yay

“Sit as little as possible. Give no credence to any thought that was not born outdoors while moving about freely.”

—Friedrich Nietzsche

Ooo

Ohh yea and learn how to cook with raw foods

watch the classic movies

fuck bitches get money

Bucket List for my Last Days in LA?

Dear Tumblr,

I’m torn between Cal and UCLA. Both seem cool but I want to choose where I will be happiest. But if this is my last few months in So Cal I want to make it count. SO here’s what I wanna do:

1) Become a runner by running my first 5K

2) Try out surfing in a surfing camp here in LA or San Diego

3) Try out rock climbing at Joshua Tree

4) Pick up photography with a DSLR camera or a lomo camera

5) Hike all the major places here in Los Angeles including Malibu, the San Gabriel Mountains, Griffith park, Malibu Creek, etc.

6) Join a local Zine in Long Beach

7) Shop all of Melrose and West Hollywood

8) Visit LA once a week for a weekly show (free or really cheap)

9) Bike to Huntington Beach

10) Read a ton of philosophy!

If you notice most all of these require physical activity so more importantly I need to start strength training and become a whole lot fitter than I am now. This will happen.

Thank you Sartre, I will no longer have bad faith. 

Hit Refresh

I’m reviewing my blog right now realizing nothing has changed from my goals set last May. However, I don’t have the obsession with being beautiful anymore. I want to do me. Rather than thinking too much on the future I want to capture the moment right now. Now I am torn between Cal and UCLA, cuz I’m starting to love Los Angeles more. There’s a lot of shit going down here. All I know is that winter break, when no more stress is hitting me, I will take a risk. I’m not sure what it is but I will become someone that scares me. Rather I will grow into myself. Just two more weeks to survive in this semester, then let’s see what I’ll do.

On another note,

If I’m not accepted for the Fall Semester, I’m going homeless. Or I’m going to Washington DC. Or I will do a trip. Or I will do something crazy and out of the ordinary. More on this will come in April. I’m excited but I need to be excited right now!!!! What’s wrong with me?